I WHORE MYSELF I WHORE MY PAST I MET MYSELF BEHIND THE GLASS I GAVE IN TO THE SHAKY NIGHTS THE BATHROOM FLOORS AND BLURRY EYES THE SCARES I GOT FOR OVER A DOZEN DECADES
I'm supplemental Encouraged to divide among atrocity I got the right six strings the right five fingers Keepsakes of arms detached from me I prayed to be otherworldly I prayed to nobody at all I called to tell her I wasn't ok, She said she thought I wouldn't make the fall
I'm dying to breathe, please keep me safe, unsick uncertain Garbage floods my tongue and face My eyes are wide behind the curtain I'm restrained and peaceful I'm fucked, my face is wet and my feet are numb Any other day I'd tell my father But I couldn't fucking reach his phone
I've been a mistake I've been a brother I've been a shitty fucking excuse for a friend But oh, bright eyes, loud spoken Do you know how I loved Do you know the way I ached I spoke your signals in the bathroom mirror nightly I showed your pictures to the town I never loitered in I became the papers, drifting through your window, messages pronounced Never tell me what I've said
I'm easels erased Cutthroat to sounds of engines turning off I am the misplaced argument Never brought back up to leave room for air I'm no insight, I'm not an indecency But fuck if I don't feel like one sometimes