I’ve never known isolation like this The view of sunlight has been blocked by my fists And the hours keep counting down I’m thinking of a future where I’m not around You can’t reach me, I’ve raised all my defenses I did it for safety but it just made me selfish how should I feel, when I’m losing everything, When I’ve taught myself the last few years to not feel anything? And the full moon keeps looking down at me It might as well forever because the tides seem to never change forme And the seasons are forgetting to change There was a time when I was warm but it seems so far away So do I wait for the cold earth’s embrace? Or do I just pray that the rain washes this all away? Because I feel like I may never change Theres no turning back when you’ve become this way Do I walk as far as I can into the waters? They all know I’m acting when they hear my laughter I’ve been exposed, the curtains dropped to the floor I don’t recognize my own voice anymore So save your breath: I’m not the person that you knew before
There’s torches for the haze, and umbrellas for the rain But I don’t want to carry them every step of every day If I can start living, and maybe believing I’ll be fine until next time I feel it coming from under my skin creeping
Wax/wane- They all can tell I’m falling out of phase