Drifting upon a solar flare she's wilted but bleeding her fires forever He's Aztlan twice removed three days past noon - our final afternoon
She's that hallowed god parent who named me after my father's infinity
but yet I'm still there lying in the chapel bathing in my final baptismal
Mommy's encased in a golden frame drowning in the depths of an emerald She's carried upon the backs of Cherub children buried as pretend-stars She's shining as a goddess in the congregation of my date of birth now deferred
In the name of the surrogate sacred mother sunlit goddess of the endless desert In the name of the moonlit maiden of holy places where she waits for me at the end of all things
In the name of all things only when I'm drowning do I finally dream Only when she buries me deep underneath the sands do I finally have a name
In the name of the ever-afters, only when I've died before the goddess do I finally have a father
And only when sets me down to rest do I finally sleep
And there I died from earthen graves the local natives rose to wave goodbye they carried my bloodied body and held a last supper in my honor
I'm a long-count in a distant desert a clock stopped before completion I'm an inconvenient unholy beauty but the truth a has set me
So I'm taking my death and I'm painting it perfectly painters and priests they give sight and lead while the ill-sighted are led the remaining innocence bleeds into the rain drowning everyone in attendance
And the children's faces are stained a dirty red they rise to awaken me, yet again
She cradles me She cradles me in my final moments as we crossed the threshold quietly
Humming softly she plants me a kiss Momma said there'd be days like this