A suicidal haze, unreal like a torturous dream Old stinging mental wounds, still raw and fucking bleeding Drowning in the womb of misery, the mother of depression The slaughter of all hope, the grim death of compassion Sell your soul to evil, sell your soul to death ... suicide, suicide, suicide, suicide, suicide, suicide, suicide... A dead empty stare into the ruins of my world A world I have already left, so many years ago
(Audio clip from American Psycho) There are no more barriers to cross All I have in common with the uncontrollable and insane The vicious and the evil All the mayhem I have caused And my utter indifference to the world I have now surpassed
My pain is constant and sharp And I do not hope for a better world for anyone In fact, I want my pain to be inflicted on others I want no one to escape
But even after admitting this There is no katharsis My punishment continues to illude me And i gain no deeper knowledge of myself No new knowledge can be extracted from my telling This confession has meant