I don't like to celebrate this holiday cuz I think that the New Year comes on another day and other month. But sitting tonight alone at home I really think only about one thing. Love. In general. What does it mean? Does it really exist as so as I can feel it? Do ppl feel the same or I live in a fairytale? i don't want to get answers to these questions but i want U to know what this words mean to me. Many things happened to me in 2011... There were good and bad days, dark and white moments but I always believed in honesty. Its in fact the same as these 4 letters - l- o -v -e...emotions that I felt once will never got out of my mind. I can say "Thank u" to many ppl whom i met in 2011 but I can say - "Oh my ! God bless you! U make me fly" - only to one person. You! I appreciate every moment, every word, every glance, every touch and every kiss by you. I don't know if its right or if its not normal and I should just say - "Happy New Year and wish you luck in 2012.." But what I'm writing now is something that my soul wants u to know. There are a lot of people that are ready to fall in love, but there are few of them that is possible to fall in love with!
Time when all Russian souls are transformed into one strong energy... And I feel deep inside this feeling! I try to make every day unforgettable and i try to find time for party always...Not only on holidays. In fact i began the celebration in november i think...For me the New Year came that time. I met you. i m not going to loose ma mind and become obsessed with your soul but i really wanna u to know what i feel about your personality.....your hands....your mind...,your thoughts...your eyes....your lips .....and just you. Because i promised.
If you miss someone - Call him! If you wanna meet someone - Invite him! If you are not clear? - Explain. If you have questions- Ask them! If you don't like something - Tell it! If you like something - Keep it! If you want something - Get it! If you love someone - Tell it! And don't miss time!
Sometimes I think that i live really in a kinda of imaginary world. Where there are only few of people who CAN REALLY feel me. Not understand, but feel. I believe that everything that is happening is not by chance...Everything has its own meaning and reason. And i'm not mistaken in my emotions. Sometimes I feel very lonely...Sometimes irritated with all standards that people follow. Sometimes wanna kill someone for their stupid wishes. But the real dream that I want to come true is - make people's minds pure and feelings deeper. And open doors to my fairytale to everyone who is in my heart.
Let me say what I could do if you were ready and gave me chance to do it. I will turn off all the mobiles and escape with you somewhere on a small island or any other place without any people there...well, may be with some, but not a lot. I will tell you everything that is in my soul and show you how its wonderful to feel the opening of your heart under the stars and big explosion somewhere inside your breast. Its not about human nature, its about deep soul. I would kiss you every moment, not because i want you but because kiss can keep words. I would hug you every possible second not because I wanna feel your body, but because hugs let us feel the energy. I would look more often into your eyes, not because they are really beautiful, but because eyes make us disappear in the world of another person. And I will hold your hand as often as possible because hands is a canal to heart..
Anyway, I would tell you everything I want and then leave you alone for a day or two without any massages, just to give you time to think. And you wouldn't know about where i am and what I'm doing... I would come back some days after and...