What does it mean to be happy And am I getting better I used to make excuses for myself but its not the weather I tried to rid myself Of my anxious tendency I have to accept my head for what it is to me I'm not super human Well I'm barely alive Well I would kill to leave my house And not be afraid of the outside So I started thinking It'd be so nice To not have trouble sleeping I haven't slept in nights. So I called to apologize For every night I told you I didn't want to live my life But I hung up Before you pick up Because I changed my mind no more (??) And I know about myself And if giving up doesn't make you stronger Then why the hell am I still here Call me depressed And tell me to get over it It's not in my head but It's in my blood So I called to apologize For every night I told you I didn't want to live my life But I hung up Before you pick up Because I changed my mind And I've gotten better At getting better And I've gotten better At getting better At being me And I've gotten better At getting better And I've gotten better At being me And I've gotten better At getting better And I've gotten better At being me At being me