I’m just asking for reason for the sinking. I’m just asking for reason for the loss of myself. I guess I’m looking for strength behind an answer, instead of looking for justification of myself. Sometimes you say what you say just to get through the day, But I can no longer afford the luxury of lies. Do you ever tell yourself “No I’m doing just fine"? But I can no longer afford the luxury of lies. It's not a razor. But it sure as hell cuts like one. It's like a gun to the back of my head, weighing back potential with each fucking thought I make. I ask him and I say “is it so wrong that I picked one and you picked the other? They both achieve a means to an end don't they?” It’s not like I knew what I was getting myself into. It’s not like I saw this kind of thing getting out of hand. But I am young, I am naïve. It’s such a long time. Such a long time. Oh god I wish I’d picked the other some days. And there’s a part of me that tries to scream I never had a choice… and maybe I never did. But I’ll end my own life before I renounce my responsibility as a person who tried. I know a cut can be sewn shut, and that a wound can be cleaned. But how many times can I bleed before someone notices? (Or it all bleeds out?) I know a cut can be sewn shut, and that a wound can be cleaned. But how many times can I bleed before someone notices? (Or it all bleeds out?) Will they ever? Sometimes you say what you say just to get through the day, But I can no longer afford the luxury of lies. Do you ever tell yourself “No I’m doing just fine”? But I can no longer afford the luxury of lies. Oh god I wish I’d picked the other some days. Oh god I wish I'd picked the other some days. I wish that I could say I never had a choice.