old fears resurfacing undulating beneath my flesh skin set to crawl
from the distance all the hills appear to be the same here the baying of wild dogs caroms amongst the evergreens
through gaping fissures collapsing colors I am exposed I'll be the first to admit that I do this for the pain
when I reach inside when I reach beyond that's when the darkness sets in where impulse
overwhelms reason when heated coils sear now I have this gut feeling that I'm going to destroy myself before it's too long call it intuition call it hindsight or the lack of will back then
there used to be feeling reducing myself to ashes to rebuild atop the ruins the perfect foundation for the killing floor
the steering wheel turns all those memories burn cloaked under the stench of ignited oil
I remember your words fuel for the fire I remember your words
now I need something to numb the pain maybe a roam beyond the hills into the field somewhere in this expanse I buried a piece of myself to erase your memory
I'll remain here until the breaking of dawn resurrects without once missing to take what's left of me
though I've built myself to be destroyed you can never ever take what's mine
encircle my body with razor wire the deepest cuts are the kindest
lazarus runs headlong through
brambles and thorns used salt and alcohol to soak the ragged sores.