Hopped on the train the other day on route to Penn, transfer at Jamaica.
I observed strangers as they were looking through the glass that separates the waiting room from the platform looking on.
I always seem to find some obscure beauty in my life on days that I feel less alive.
And on the train ride home I was staring out the window, and it only goes to show. Don’t you hate to be alone? It’s only what we tell ourselves. Cause when I got on the train myself, I was hoping to sit next to no one else.
So I just clenched and faked a smile.
You took the car out for a ride, you were gone for quite a while.
Time enough for me to hide, I took the bus out of this town far enough until I was safe.
I never meant to let you down, I hated that look upon your face.
Spend your nights wasting time,kissing every boy in line.
I know where I spend mine, Goddamnit on repeat, singing every word in awe. One line stuck: “You were the last good thing I ever saw”
When I got home, I couldn’t find closure in that note.