I've tried so many times to pound the words out in my head, to perfect the things I mean. To say words left unsaid. And each time I try I seem to come up short of the pain I really feel, about the darkness in my core. But you're gone. You're gone. You're gone, and you ain't ever coming back. So this should come as no surprise that these things never last.
I tried to say goodbye I thought it a thousand times The screams ring in my head: "goodbye." The anger boils my blood. And I'd rather feel the hatred then not feel a thing at all.
I told myself I'd cry I said I'd let it out this time To signify the mark you left The imprint on my heart I'm trying to be the best I can; the man I knew you were But the strength inside is dwindling A blessing and a curse
If I could amount to anything in this world It would be the highest honor to have your approval To know you look down on me, you smile and never frown And say; "my boy has never let me down."
But if I can't be half the man you were Just send me straight to hell More rotten wood to burn
I failed to say goodbye I hope actions speak louder than words Because I never spoke at all One more time beating a dead horse Just knowing what I know now doesn't take away the hurt
Damn my soul I've tried to hold my own But all I did was fall Damn my soul Just damn it all You can have what's left of Because there's not much left at all
These are the things I think when the world is silent When the sun sets each night I find myself alone To drown in my own pity And all my darkest fears No one to stick beside me I face this all alone