Hey, yo, listen to me It’s not the first time you get into such a situation Cuz I’m sure you used to do something that you didn’t really want to You just tried to justify somebody’s hopes, but failed, Because your desire to do it was fake And then you felt so bad!
I’m not nervous, mommy, I’m just tired to be your docile daughter You always wanted me to become a sort of “must-have-been-you”, Fulfil your childhood dream come hell or high water And I really got it, yeah, I was trying to be upfront But you were blind to my truth – it didn’t correspond To the picture of the world which you wanted me to live in Even you kept rubbing it in and now you see me leaving Raised your eyebrows on how I could live in such a mess I confess, I needed a bit of everything You said it’s worthless, but I yelled - order is sameness The only thing that I got from you was just your protest So I had to be good, I had to be polite – it annoyed me Sometimes I needed a bloody fight, but def I had to put out My tremendous inner light – it destroyed me I wouldn’t get you upset, so I did as you said I might
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Look, I was trying to get Your esteem and your respect I really stood on my head To grow your favorite mistress But then I felt myself bent I understood that’s the end Because I wasn’t quite meant To be your favorite mistress
And my lover wasn’t good for you – he was a creep you said Negligible quantity, he made you feel so bad My man should be well-heeled, and he should be the best But who is that hollow dork? You hate his ass You never let him in the door – he caused you distress No matter it hurt me deep it turned to abscess I followed your policy to be pure Apart from my feelings they were caged for sure Strict clothes, good manners, artificial speeches I’m gorgeous, real lady, unlike those stupid bitches But I felt ill at ease, I should believe you Still it’s my life, I’m the only one to live it First, I didn’t think of resisting you at all But everything I did in my life incited only gall I knew it was time for my stubborn mannish nature as you call it And all my being claimed I didn’t really want it
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Coming up, coming up to your big goal I give up, screw it up, and I am in fault Trying to reach ya, you were trying to teach me Reluctant to diss ya, now I kiss ya Forgive me, I failed to be an exemplary split Simply I turned out to be completely unfit I’m a bad girl, and all my chances are hurled But now I feel much better and my grounds are firm