September gave us awkwardness, October gave me nothing
thousand twinkeling lights in a september nightsky makes a heart filled with void remembers the aching of a loss, five years ago. and there you stood, just like a picture it seemed to me. and there you stood, the wind had gripped your pail hair and also caught my heart. and everything i didn't say echoes forever. you never saw how much you hurt me i guess. but then again, thousand twinkeling lights in an october nightsky makes my heart slowly wander and stumbles across the aching of a loss, two years ago. and the words as follow: \"i can't help that i still miss those nights we spent speaking in silence\"
i've been waiting so long for a moment when i don't feel this way. i've been waiting for a moment when i no longer feel trapped inside this hollow body, when i'm at ease. all this years i've told myself to wait fot it. maybe i feel better if i just wait for it. whenever you're around i shut my eyes and wait for it. i hope and wait, i just wait for it. but what if the moment never comes? will i be left with all my thoughts? what if i never can let go? will i ever get over you? will i ever?