the meaning my my life is all but gone i have been betrayed by my own a rollercoaser ride of emotions pounding through the chambers of my heart exploiting me like an open book as i speak i can feel a tormenting pain within myself creating an un-nerving disorder controlling me body and soul until i am none i fear the end growing stronger every second increasing every day there's no way of knowing how much more i can take will there be a solution to this pain that i feel wake up mother fucker cause you know the deal wake up mother fucker cause you know the deal bitch visions of anger emanate from my mind thoughts of the past are making me blind there's a light that burns right before my eyes i'll never know if all of thise lies will come back to haunt me in the end here i thought that you were a friend someone special within my heart you've taken my soul you've torn it apart i can't seem to resist the power you possess over me its ripping and digging draining me of my sanity feel for me i'm in pain open your eyes stand tall be a believer within your self open your eyes stand tall you've gotta see the light open your eyes stand tall you can do this on your own open your eyes open your eyes to this times of need you weren't there for me fallen to the edge of my sanity a train ride headed to no destination living a life filled with procrastination time ran out the end had to come regrettably so it had to be done living for you was all that i had scars on my brain i'll never be the same again depression breaks through like a juggernaut take a look inside and watch me rot a lifeless shell that's about to break just wanna see how much i can take how much i can take