Calm down and take my time I got to keep cool and then unwind I got to stay sane and take a breath I got to slow down and just relax
I try to persuade myself for real I try to keep control of all my fears I try to switch off and eventually turn aside And I try but I know it's a waste of my time
Run away … run away
Need it - Do I - Try it - Will I - here Want it - Can I - Got it …
Rejoice like others do I want to let go and be just like you I want to hang around while I think of nothing else I want to be sun and not the rain
I cannot just stop this masquerade I cannot accept that it's too late I cannot lose my anxiety But I try to find a place where I used to be me
I try to break out but I cannot succeed I have to be strong but again I’m too weak My senses are frail - so defenseless within But though I'm afraid I will never give in
Coalitions of viciousness fade away and take up All my weird sensations - wish I could just wake up From my known improvised life to make up My mind inside - will I just capitulate and give up?
Insufficiently wise and I don't know when I'll grow up Myself compromised and the cracks now show up In my own crystallized side to blow up To vaporize but I'll never give up …
Within our heads so deep inside, within our depths - that's where they hide And in our heads they're buried deep; and with these shades we have to live