It's like I'm losing all my passion ever since your passin', It's like the music doesn't do it anymore, I'm mad n'- insecure, it's the war we facin' deep inside us, Embracing you and making you some food, it's far behind us, You're not around me anymore, who knows when I'ma see you? We had a seed together and I know he really needs you- I was never good enough to raise a kid all by myself, Call myself Tha Soloist, a gift and curse and well, I'm not doing too well, I been going through hell, I know that I'm a make it all it takes faith I'm here tell- my story to the ones that feel like giving up a lot, Gotta get up out the dirt I think it's worth another shot, I could've ended it the day my wife was dead and gone, But my head is on as straight as Hefner when he beds a blonde, Forget it I'm a mess who I am kidding? In severe depression- Looking at ya picture and I miss you girl, you were a blessin'...
You were my treasure, gave me pleasure just to give you pleasure, I'm sorry for the things I did to make you love me lesser, But you told me that you loved me with your heart and soul, Had a feeling you would go away, even the day befo', 24/7, I learned a lesson, you told me that, Life was meant to be enjoyed with the ones you love in fact, I'm still a little shaky when it comes to getting close- I suppose it's something from the past like Ebenezer's ghost, I try to reach the host but the server's always busy, I'm feeling weak and drained, the deepest pain is still within me, It's like I'm losing everyone that told me I was special, I'm scared to fall in love for fear of death, it's like the devil's- messing me constantly, I want the beat to conquer me, So I guess I sold my soul to music and it's probably- why I'm putting songs out as much as Pac did, 'Cause Hip-Hop is my religion...
Trilian you are the best, my engineer from Serbia, Gave my MPC to ya so you could make your beats my bruh, All the listeners across the globe I love to show- my love for all the times you wrote when I was feeling low, A couple dudes don't wanna see me grow but fuck it tho, I forgive you for you know not what you do it's something so- sad when you think you think you got a shoulder you can lean on, But they will shoot you if you try to get your dream on, Seems all fake when you focus on reality, Bogus motherfuckers think emotion is my strategy, Open to a salary, Character: It has to be- the reason why I murder every single track they hand to me, I'm sorry to my family for being crazy tho, Sorry that you never got to hear me on the radio, Sorry can't provide with the money that they pay me so- I guess I'll call it quits for now, forgive me but I gotta go...