do you remember these black leaves of autumn 2010 that slept under the snow with countless filters of the cigarettes we smoked and maybe something important already rotten like these leaves i'm so cold and all the names and words i cherished most have melted down like this snow i'm cold do you remember
when was the last time i wished to get hit by a car, to fall off a roof, to cut myself to finally bleed dry when was the last time my pain was stronger than me
do you remember we were so careful there were no promises to break our hands just fell apart and we forgot the simple meaning of that bond and the very feeling that's already getting hard to describe we closed our eyes and learned how easy it is to just let go let go why in the world would we try harder
was that even real all that pain all that weakness and sorrow was that even me i cant believe it
i pray for nothing i pray for nothing i pray for nothing i pray for nothing