Sometimes I find life worth living Like each breath is a gift wrapped with a ribbon ‘Cuz each date we shape fate with decisions And each chance could be the last one given Black and white is what this world isn’t So many shades reflect UV rays And color the cornea in unique ways Creation’s canvas on daily display
Sometimes I wish I wasn’t here Wadcutter blows holes through both ears Clean slate Liberated weight No fear Ask me the truth and that’s what you’ll hear Some can’t stomach a state so severe That’s why the pill’s so hard to swallow Pleasure and peril now pointless Hollow The depths of hopelessness Where I’ll wallow
Most times I feel apathetic Like “fuck it”, “whatever”, and “okay, forget it” Twenty-nine years and I still don’t get it But the feeling is real and I’m unapologetic Fifteen years self five leaf medic Music and not much else to my credit Sure I could do with a few life edits But I don’t fix shit I just let it…
This time I’m more motivated Hunger Desire Thoroughly cultivated Previous attempts I’ve somewhat emulated While honing my craft Do math and I’ll demonstrated it Still to deal with my ills I’m sedated Many an hour if it’s in my power Depression is like wilted pedals on a flower And this is my photosynthesizer