“You’re totally ignoring me,” she said as she put on her shirt I was lying on the bed, concentrating on her skirt “Did you hear one word I said?” she said “I don’t know, it’s all a blur” I close my eyes
We fell in love in a great big rush Three years ago this June, I do recall Playing arcade games with her And wanting nothing at all Just this silly skinny girl Who tended to trip and fall On her lies
But then summer came and we felt the strain Of the damning things we’d said All the summer rains like hurricanes That flew around our heads
All the endless conversations, you know Like the things you could’ve done alone Instead, instead, instead, instead, instead
So I fucked it up like I always do, I was born to be alone I don’t even know if the words were true that I screamed into the phone All I know is everybody leaves or so it seems to me When I’m alone, alone, alone, alone, alone
But I was younger then and stronger then, somehow I can’t explain How these years can be so humbling, so strangely full of pain Just how everyone and everything must change and change and change and change And change and change and change
Just like that
Sometimes I feel just like a train that’s running off the tracks And sometimes I think I’ve said too many things I can’t take back And sometimes it seems like everything I do is just a waste In fact, that’s it, I think oh wait, I’m sure
But I’m trying every morning that I wake to stand up straight And to always tell the truth and give back more than I take And to be kind and pure, less fucking scared of everything I just can’t take much more of this, I’m sure