I've been good for weeks now I'm telling ya I'm in control I've got my shit together I know when I should fold It's just tonight nothing at all to fear You'll be with me all the time it's not like I could run off anywhere
I go right home, but I won't be alone A thousend in cash and a mobile phone I don't know how I'll stop I sure can't tell you when I am lost in that whirpool again Don't think I'll ever stop Can't see a reason why Only dying makes me feel, feel alive
It's that constant burden of trying to make it bearable When my life is so fucked up and so far from reparable That make me look for that final nail for my coffin It's way past midnight but I find hundreds in the nothing (The same lies I've told everybody including myself a hundred times)
I go right home, I won't be alone A thousend in cash and a mobile phone I don't know how I'll stop I sure can't tell you when I am lost in that whirpool again Don't think I'll ever stop Can't see a reason why Only dying makes me feel alive
Wide awake, I never went to bed Naked by the window, And the sun is pissing red My hands look rusty, guess my nose has bled Then I remember what my father said, what he said
I don't know how I'll stop I sure can't tell you when I am lost in that whirpool again Don't think I'll ever stop Can't see a reason why Only dying makes me feel alive