I am standing here on the beach now I am looking at the waves They seem so welcoming And there are thoughts Flashing in and out of my mind What am I doing? Is this the right thing? Should I have gone? Should I have stayed? It’s a situation I am sure many of you have been in But I am perhaps Not as strong As many of you I am not proud of what I have done It's certainly not the right thing But for me It seems like it I have thought about this for months And it's an answer An easy way out some will say You will be ok you will be fine I have left you well prepared for this I can't I won't tell you where I am Where I have gone In a strange twist I don't really think I know where I got here somehow In the darkest of night And I have walked for hours with the sun As it came up I look around and can see nothing But sand and the dunes And the sea Crashing on the beach Such a beautiful sound And if it's the last sound I hear At least it's a beautiful sound It's hard when I think back At what we had The life I had The career I had So much excess Drink and other stuff Nonstop parties That slowly eroded What will I had? Everything comes to an end and stops Everything stops The handshakes The pat on the back The cheques in the post The payments Everything stops coming in But nothing stops going out Nothing How can you carry on? How can you find what cannot be found And when you see others abuse the system In much higher positions Than you could ever dream of reaching It sums it all up really You can lose everything For the sake of not a lot They can lose nothing When they in fact lost everything for others So like I said You are provided for And I will miss you And now I hear the beautiful sound of the waves Again on the beach And there is not another sound I would wish to hear At this moment in time Goodbye