With each thought I thrust this shovel that you've given me into the earth And I dig my grave I don't trust my love but it's through faith that I've found mirth But My faith is fading as desire dies Tell me how do I believe when I allow the need for justification to thrive Accepting a truth is easy But To challenge it would appease me I’m begging you from my knees God Please God relieve me Relieve me of my doubt Relieve me of my constant need to see to believe because lately it's been leaving me with hardly anything to pursue that I feel holds value But I just want to know you My inability to accept these banalities haunts me If the devil is real then he's forming an army he’s drafting our young and he wants me But if my God gave me his commandments I fear that I've taken his love and that I've damned it Why create us with the ability to question if all of the answers lie in you We put knowledge on a pedestal when we should rely on you Your children are in desperate need of compassion father please have mercy on the blind Your love is nourishing even in the smallest of rations teach us to act out of love rather than overthink with our minds It’s too frequent that I find myself the delinquent I’m just searching for the answers I never meant to offend I’m not saying I don't believe I’m just trying to find the means but as of now I’m on the fence What if we knew the truth What if God showed his face to everything that he gave life to and we weren't so confused Until that day I’m afraid that I'll struggle with faith And I'll continue to pray and cry out your name Father Father Relieve me