I’m less of a lover, than I am a fighter I stand six foot four in trainers which I keep washing machine white And I’m wind up by people who don’t just say what they mean But I find it hard to explain myself when I’m talking about my feelings Well, I resist change to the point that it begins insisting itself upon me I’m a victim of habit if I look back over time I’ve always been But last sunday I had an experience which turned my life on its head Now I’m caring and a core with a lifetime unsaid I feel like my whole world’s falling down I feel like my whole world’s tumbling down See I felt useless like an unfinished adventure when she turned around to call me catch all of my attention And the love that she needed that I just couldn’t have given her had been found and fulfilled within the arms of another And so I snapped And I reached out to grab her I was now tired and tormented My face dripping with anger And her words just seemed to serve as more fuel for my fire I’m hoarse from all this pleading Like a worn out town choir I try singing in different keys to win her back I made my heart sing like mandolin strings So I crack I cry in anger for it’s the closes I’ve got to reaching within It’s like I’m dangling over the precipice unsure of whether or not to fall in I feel like my whole world’s falling down I feel like my whole world’s tumbling down It’s like a tide wave of emotions running over my spheres It’s like I’ve been washed up in anger Doubts, worries and fears One moment I’m crying out the next I’m laughing like mad As if my whole world has been flipping over from happy to sad I’m back again until I’m in this overflowing pool of morbidity The saddest I’ve felt since these feelings first came and filled me But feelings need revenge before happiness flows To climb with the highest I’ve got to be willing to sink with the lowest I’m lying in gravity boast not bragging built not barriers of existence I’m crying in panic †hold on to habits†Formed out of arrows of existence And these consistencies I make to keep these consistencies the same Maintain to stay afloat Allow me to continue to stay sane When instead I’m breaking down All around me it’s falling, all the realm All these roots I thought was solid are being shaken and fell And when walls fall just pure feeling stay behind It’s like I’m waking up in worry and going to bed crying It’s like I’ve been building up from base again to seal in my strength dealing with the stages so I can be with love again Be with my fears so I can feel real again Facing up to my fears so I can feel what’s life again But it’s the world that I’m at now And each of us have fears in us to break down And until we break them all our negative cycles continue So be with your pain but don’t let pain contain you Because this is the world that I’m at now And each of us have fears in us to break down And until we break them all our negative cycles continue So be with your pain but don’t let pain contain you Be with your pain but know that’s not all there is to you Still so much left in you, still to shine through