Once again I've sunken into this realm, a dull apathy, so familiar, so real. A mindset that musters emotions lackluster, this false reality of faded colors.
Empty thoughts, my soul that rots alone. Sinking down, my dreams that drown in cold.
An icy tomb a harsh defeat.
Looking up, I see only how far I've sunk. I can go no lower. Looking down in horror, cavernous explorer nonconsensual relentless endeavor. My heart beating slower.
Give me a reason why I should stay here? my body's too tired to feel hate or fear. No motivation to alleviate (this) suffocating emptiness and lethargy.
Shutting down, checking out. This is my flatline.
I am exhausted, weathered and weakened. I am exhausted, I'm ready to sleep.
Close my eyes I've had enough of this life shutting down, checking out.
Finally serenity drifting off to sleep please take my hand and guide me gently
Please don't let me wake from this peace that I've earned this peace I deserve. I don't want to wake from this place of comfort away from the hurt.