I've been clearing the air Of every connection we had lost What a criminal thought That you gave so much room to multiply And it left you to soak in conversations With a door you could not close
And I was intertwined for the first time With my own lies As we both crossed a devastating line In the flood tide It never mattered why When we chose sides, we were both right
I've been opening mail Addressed to the man I used to be What a cynical voice That retreats from my lips each time I speak What a practical joke But you let it have you Didn't that just prove my point?
Was it enough for you The vessel they poured you into? Was all the damage done?
Out in the saffron field You were so aggravated Missing your chance to make your mark So you tore apart what you had left inside your chest But if you regret taking that step You haven't yet
So I threw it all back The love that I didn't yet deserve And it's ringing us out As though it was suffering Through everything that I've done
So it's over my head How everything washes up again 'Cause I spent most of my life ruling things out Sinking my teeth into your every bit of doubt
If I was coming clean Would it reach you? From what I've seen it was all true There's so much left to grieve Couldn't hurt you to leave it be Just for one day Just to see straight.