It sucks that I can’t feel pain no more Cuz I read the fortune and it told me so But it doesn’t mean that it's better for my health Cuz I cut open my heart and it spilled out the truth For a second I felt divine Like I was closer to being part of the sky But the blood was right and it put me to sleep Behind the wheel on 84 east You always said that I was too shallow to see the truth But I'm up to my neck in my own lies That’s why I decided to cut the tie Forget me now without the drugs Yer only lying to yerself but fuckin you up So pick up yer feet when yer crossing the tracks Cuz its yer own luck yer fuckin with
I cloak myself in blood to hide the anger that I hate so much of me Cuz I can't handle feeling more and more that this is my own fault I'm giving it up n hoping that there is and evil side down there for me I’ve lost the motive to succeed so I'm ending this game to find out what I need And when the sun comes up I nail boards against the windows to keep me shut What the fuck is going on I'm not following shit to get along Keep checking on my pulse cuz the air is cold and it’s the perfect day to die I'm not acting out I'm just freeing my mind
I've tested my luck way too much Playing Russian roulette without giving a fuck God does it feel like I'm gambling my life For selling my soul while I was under the knife And it seems this shit is just piling up higher and I'm losing focus on my true desire But that’s the game that I play when I'm in the dumps, I act like it's cool but I don’t give a fuck And stop blaming me for not feeling your pain I told you once before that I blew my fuckin brains away I'm hiding away everything that I use And I'm consuming the problems that I had when it started I wish I had a motive to go with But I'm just feeding of yer grin that you use to lie
I tried to get a grip on life But I'm just fuckin sitting here all day The comfort of my own home Has become a prison cell and locked me in alone