The void - this silence, A cold listless dawn… I lay amongst the ashen scenery Awake, but dreaming Ever near such swarming bliss, Nearer to thee In these deepest of groves, My eyes are set aflame When one (dead) rose Trapped a thorn in my vein Leaking droplets of blood, Burning blood, To ease the slickend bow over The inability of consciousness to cope…
Like a reverie I fall each day, Awakened in this flesh, Sinews of bitterness Contained by mortal burden Restrained, Alone, With the dreaded note to change a thought, The gentle whispers of surreality Like blades rending their paths beneath my back bone, Pure and blinding Intense light Memories fade like seamless waves Deep into the recesses of an abandoned shore Where orchids thrive on life lines severed, Sacrificed
For I am nothing without voice
The beauty in death is far from seen, A freedom pure in form Servitude dethroned, As the blood flows thicker than wine Over the inability of consciousness to cope…
Together we could have thrived We could have died In aspheric transformation, Beyond the light of Sephira We could have rose As divinity surpassed Infusing soul and star dust to create The crown, the wisdom, and understanding:
To feel nothing is to become everything, A voice empowered…
But I have faltered and fallen below their stare Vengeful with prickling deceit, My body now torn Soul gorged upon, Bones crushed and limbs separated, To what pleasure do I owe this? Must I confess that which is held dear to me Upon the ignorant minds of man? A blessing of freedom I presume As my blood flows And images destroy my wit, A burning behind cruel eyes…
(The confession unveiled)
“I have chosen to disclose only a few details About my relationship with the “deceased”. For between her and I, only secrets were betrayed.. We met one eve When my mind still had wit And felt a tingle of emotion. It was sometime ago, that eve, But I still do recall the way she felt, the way She spoke, the softness of her kiss, The overall sensation obtained By my own reason when I was near to her… I believe in this suffering, for There is an art in suffering An art only for those skilled enough to see and feel, Then contort it, weaving it into works of beauty. If she were still “living”, she would understand this art For she was beyond flesh, beyond beauty, And I could never hurt her I loved her to deeply.. It was the illusion of promise broken by word which killed her. Yes, words alone hold the power to create and destroy Like both freedom and nature. For on that eve I spoke nothing but truth. She fell to my embrace, as devil to the depths, And I fell as well. My heart could no longer bare the burden of Life and sought a certain peace in her, so as Moment turned to day, day to month, many moons Would outline the flaws of character. Then as if vanished, she was gone. She spoke no more. Her skin turned marble and blood froze, eyes of chrysalis, That soft whispering kiss became A bitter lament for nostalgia. I was driven mad, out of my wit! I became a gaunt image of my former self, loathsome indeed, My mind filled with thoughts, ideas, unanswered questions, And an overwhelming emptiness that burned… She hid from me, and is still hiding, “Dead but dreaming” For I can feel her in everything, She is not gone Just traced across the lands Her blood is now the blood of the earth The mother goddess, She has become above all And I will soon join her at the throne. Now take with this what you will My last confession, Illusion or reality..?”
The void - this silence, A cold listless dawn… I lay amongst the ashen scenery Awake, but dreaming Ever near such swarming bliss, A prisoner of my own creator… Prometheus