If only I could go back… All the things I’d redo, The steps I’d retrace, All the mistakes that I would choose to erase… If only I could go back, I’d have changed my mind. I’d make a smarter decision than I made the first time. If only I could go back, I’d remove from the start the source of the problem that gave me all of these scars. If only I could go back… But I can’t go back.
Those temptations that I fell into, everything that I settled for, Are nothing in comparison to what I was created for. You called me out of sin and into a type of love I never knew; Jesus, I’m a living demonstration that Your words and promises are true.
But it’s so hard not to dwell in the past when I still deal with its consequences. My life can be just fine, but memories of long ago will surface any second. And I struggle with the option to remember and relive all the times that I failed You. And I’ve stored up this regret for so long that it’ll show up every time I contemplate Your truth.
And I just don’t know what to do anymore.. If You really died for me, then, Jesus, why don’t I feel free? Was the cross meaningless like they said? Was Your death powerless?
But even in my unbelief, You drew me close and taught me how to breathe. It’s only by my choice that I continue to suffocate. So my past still haunts me like a ghost, and I hold these memories too close. I think it’s time I finally move on.
Will I ever let You forgive what I’ve done, oh, the entity I call my God? Will You ever let me forget what I’ve done, oh, the entity I call my God? Will I ever let You forgive what I’ve done, oh, the entity I call my God? Will You ever let me forget what I’ve done, oh, the entity I call my God?