Planning my attack just before you come back around Maybe I'm wrong, but I don't know how to back down I never fit in, I don't belong But you know it doesn't matter when we're feeling strong Cause I'm a vampire y'all And we toast the blood of our enemies You're still scaring me no, you're scaring me no And we don't fit in Wonder what it's like when you're living with someone like me I'm a freak and I'm nervous when it's easy Feral days, and I'm sex crazed I put it in with my animal ways That's the sign I was born to be living in I ran around and gave the finger to the Ritalin You can calm me down, I can't say why You say goodbye, you burn my eyes, you burn my eyes A thousand Julys I hope you'll find I'd give you the words, but no words come to mind But you turn me so cold, so I tell you lies When you let me in, it's like a thousand Julys When you left for good, I felt the drop like a boom Wintertime all alone in your bedroom I don't blame you, and I know I'm not your friend How we living, young American I guess I've always known I'd be on my own, I'd be on my own And I don't know why, I don't know why, I don't know why A thousand Julys I know you'll find I'd say the words, but no words come to mind But you let me in And I don't know why When you come, it's like a thousand Julys A thousand Julys That's what you are I'd tell you to come back now, but we've gone to far And we've burned it out now I don't even try But I feel you gone I've lost a thousand Julys