Feeling let down by those genetically engineered to love you always coming in second became more of a home than a place and finding a home in your disappointment never became easier and the term "family" has never been tossed around so easily. Mother and father I promise to make you proud, but for now I have to do what brings me satisfaction , call me arrogant call me selfish call me idiotic at best, but at least I can go to sleep knowing that when I look at my own reflection I don't hate myself but see a spitting a image of what you never were proud of,I could change my direction and follow the path that you expected, and just throw this all away, but for the first time in a long time i feel a sense of comfort. I'm not writing this to make you sad, but simply to interpret what I could never share with you and I don't write to impress but simply express how all I want in life is a bit of happiness and acceptance. I’ve become familiar with the feeling of never being good enough a reminder that the possibility of making you proud was withered down by the words of the ones that were supposed to love me unconditionally. I’ve been swallowed whole by the idea that I’ll be on a constant search for your approval, but this is who I am, this is my life, my friends have taken place of your love and I no longer need you If actions speak louder than words then ill stay silent and let my life be heard.