I took a breath of the cold fresh air, decisions had been made, made without a choice. This conflict can´t be solved, it lies deep down there anchored in my skin. and you´ve predicted something \"we won´t get far with it, in fact, you have been right\" I believed in your loyalty, why did you take the best part of me? To recover from you was not easy. But this is just for me! So I can cry, so I can dance, so I can shout out of joy, because I have survived despite grief and pain. And I´m not yet at the end, I know. So I can stop drinking to be again how I once was. Why do I feel so empty after all? Although I know that we lacked a foundation I try to get up and leave the wreckage of the ship that we called ours. All the time we lay side by side no dream, no thought remained until now, and from this - I understand existance is impermanent. I hope there's more to come up, at least my death will show.