Being alive isn't such a dilemma and I came to terms with that when I realized that moving forward isn't listening to different music but listening to the same music and finding a different meaning
And I never knew how bad I was until I got better but I burned down all my bridges long ago and left myself with no escape so I'll let myself melt into the emptiness of my bed and evaporate
I'll turn up the music and stop looking both ways and I'm scared of getting close so I'll keep saying that I'm lonely but please don't try to hold me because you don't really want to know me