I've been thinking of leaving to the place you've gone.
I'm sitting here waiting for you to return my call even though I know that you're not there. You left it all behind and swallowing acceptance is the hardest part when you never get to say goodbye. I hope to find myself in better health but for now I'm overcome with concern because you constantly haunt me. Still, I love to see you.
The sunset is my horizon again and I'm searching for some sort of repentance from my sorrows. I never saw the potential that you did. My denial would show every single time you said that I could do what I put my mind to.
I guess I'll show just how selfish I can be with no focus on the needs of anyone but me.
I'll take the scenic route home. Cold and alone, I am seeking the sun. Keep it hidden away as the tides start to rise in efforts of keeping me from you. You were never alone, trust me I've been there. Those eyes that once held such warmth have grown bitter with the autumn wind.
I've been thinking of leaving to the place you've gone.
Father lend me your strength. Mother give me your pain in the hopes that you never feel this way again. Trying to say your name always stops my lungs from breathing. Your presence has become past tense. Now's the time for the hardest questions. Life, love, and loss was never meant to be easy. Still, I'm just dragging my feet.
You said you would die for me but I chose to live for you. Now your ghost is all I see. Not surviving, just existing.
This is my never ending attempt to save you. I won't give up .
I'm not surviving, I'm just existing in this hell.
I've been thinking of leaving to the place you've gone.