there's a difference between following your dreams and chasing them i've spent countless night sitting alone staring at fleeting fractures spiraling hopelessly downwards dripping through pores in the walls seeping into our subconscious i hear knocking and scratching your spotless mind won't rest
focus is impossible if words could blur mine would be straight lines. running concurrently around your arms, pressing and binding her name lingers like smoke on the tip of my tongue my lips are turning black from the addiction trying desperately to escape i've covered up the scars she gave me
we get high to chase our dreams send me back to sleep
give me rest i need release don't let me wake my teeth won't fall out by themselves
i spend my days fluctuating between a restless indifference and a burning distraction eating at the perfection of the image i have of you in my mind what if we cant stop days turn to nights, weeks turn to months i lasted 24 days last time, 4 more than your best i'm sorry i didn't understand, how could i i'm looking for answers in your broken promises with each attempt to pick up the pieces leads to another cut finger and another disappointed excuse i guess time's a language i never learned to speak credits from i'd rather forget, released 16 November 2014