thoughts of what we've lost and gained are twisting this allegory onto itself always tired never resting time was never an ally
we talk in soft voices making efforts to push time the inevitable forgone conclusions slightly further out of sight it's working from where I sit even sadness is warm and familiar with you
the numbness is gone instead awakened is dormant passion unfamiliar enthusiasm appreciation for mundane drones and routine i've never been so fucking happy sitting next to someone on a bus
i see four stars from where I’m sitting please tell me you can see them too remind me you’re on this earth with me
we hold on to each dying second savouring moments sticking memories on our walls not forgetting not forgetting
when waiting vacant expectations pull my nerves the complex puppetry of trembling limbs in continuum every second away from you i'm consumed mesmerised by memories tripping over expectations
wasting time never felt so productive bright lights masking past struggles Tendencies for melodrama foster apprehension
I remember lies I told myself to create fantasies where all happiness is fiction naive pursuit leaves me depleted deconstructing feelings thinking about thinking and writing about writing
but time is fluid thoughts come easier like cones were stoned stones you've thrown away and further than I thought
no longer do i easily find inspiration defaulting to self pity fuck wallowing in tears shed over an unwillingness to let go step outside come with me
we hold on to each dying second savouring moments sticking memories on our walls not forgetting not forgetting