I�m not scared, but this is happening I�m not afraid, but this is real It all comes at once From every single direction This time I�m not sleeping at all How could this be real I�ve failed you I was lying when I said I was looking north I was too scared to show what I am Bear with me this is all I have left This night be more than a single conversation It�s been dancing around in my head For quite some time Just the though Of cleaning up myself I stare at the wall Watching my time float away It�s all been a blur And nothing will change I was lying This is defeat