journal entry number twenty, getting older, feeling meaner, thinking faster, getting even, making standards, faking answers, can you rewrite history? a conversation with myself, turning into something else, risking my security, losing my obscurity. bored with my life, repetition, waiting for the situation, select problems impair decision, fearful living, nothing given, can you rewrite history? a conversation with myself, turning into something else, risking my security, losing my obscurity. a conversation with myself, turning into something else, risking my security, losing my obscurity