driving past the house again memories of the trees they filtered out the world enough so no one else could see parking in the shadows lurking always underneath still i stay just out of sight until i can breathe working every night to gather up the nerve to try keep away says every bone creaking as i creep closer… closer
hollow brain like a dogs bark shouting past the logic in a rage and i ask you no, i tell you things could be so different now i know ive really changed i swear i promise fuck im shouting so you run for cover and i implode
now im smashing all the windows and the panes my arms are running red but nothing seems to cut through all the attitude and horror i am it keeps me up at night and focused on a goal of how to reach you and scare you and oh my god i think ive lost you again blinding rage now out the door the image of you spitting insults and the truth it always has a way of cutting too deep and im a million miles an hour blasting through the interchange and praying that those headlights can stop the pain
anger got the best of me, let you down again but still ill wait for a sign to show you i've changed i know i fucked it up again, scared you away but i remain dedicated to taking you down with me but i remain dedicated to taking you down with me