Pondered this life of living hell Unraveling cons of pathetic existence So cold from lack of love that most feel Only knowing pain and shame this mind can never heal
Throw it all away Worthless shell of mine
I've gathered the tools of fatal exaltation The taste of dignification Now upon my tongue Driving my will to die
Arranging the stage for this final display See, the theme of my play is the lust for decay I only wish I felt the pain of the maggots that feast upon my scars or felt the pain of my flesh being charred
Whoa I'll see it through
I'm stating my final goodbyes to deaf ears all alone in a dark room that reminds me of everything that is ugly
Concluding this novel disgusted by the lies that spilled careless out the mouths that I trusted Swept under the rug I've been neglected and abused And the darkness still remains But the gut wrenching truth clouded by denial will shine bright through the smog!
I'm testing the rope Can it hold the weight of guilt I feel Left to deal with the pain Now that I am gone
I've assembled the tools of fatal exaltation The taste of dignification Now upon my tongue Driving my will to die
Moments left Prepare for the end A few final thoughts race through my mind Sweat begins to break as I prepare this machine which promised satisfaction guaranteed I take off my shoes, and remove my socks Walk over to the door to make sure that it's locked Climbing the rafters of deaths authorization Preparing myself for the terrific violence to come
Lost my balance and fell like I've done so many times before A miscalculation in my pl0t to end it all Instead of a strong jump that would've broke my neck I'm swaying three feet above the deck
In and out, in and out of consciousness Constricted words come out a hiss In and out, in and out of consciousness Constricted words come out a hiss
I gathered the tools of fatal exaltation The satisfying taste of dignification Now upon my tongue