i hear screaming all the time ever since i was like nine and nobody is screaming but they could be so my senses heighten
it's inside my head except it's not except it is it seems to start
from stimuli inside the threshold far away enough to
leave it open for interpretation by my brain faster than i can ascertain there is no danger and cancel the unfolding anxiety attack but it's too late to take it back the volume of the tv's on like 3 but it's too much for me
right now at night i hear it through the floor and put my headphones on and turn them up as loud as i can handle so that i can finally
get some peace and quiet in my head but when it's silent it just makes me listen harder cos you know at any moment i might
have to spring into action or evesdrop on my parents cos they could be talking shit about me how terrible would that be
but really i guess that it's gotten better since i stopped taking my medicine the ritalin and other stimulants they had me on
were doing numbers on my psyche even though they kind of helped me stupid doctor didnt tell me anything helpful but
i just let it go cos he was really really sexy and intimidating i loved when he touched my balls and pressed his icy
stethoscope against my chest so he could hear my heartbeat just as loud and clear as it was echoing between my ears already
i hear facebook sounds in every song i hear my name in every noun i hear my dog crying three times a day and i'd get up and pet him
but he's dead and every sound that sounds like him just makes me want to stick a needle in my ear but then again i'd probably
still hear screaming every morning and hear screaming every night i'd still hear screaming when im home alone in the background of every song i listen to to kill the screaming