i can't laugh i can't cry i can't see inside of me don't know the reason why i ain't straight and i ain't high i'm the ugly in between can't live and i can't die i wanna scream and i can't win my life's a living soundtrack for a human horror film i can't feel and i can't love my mama never showed me how i never was enough i can't laugh and i can't smile i'll sacrifice my aged elders to show me how to die i can't love and i can't feel and my mother never loved me deep down she hated me i can't fuck i can't feel i'm one bizzare motherfucker what the fuck's inside of me i'll kill the beast so to free my soul and smash the mirrors that won't let me go oh if there's a smile that ya see it's only the clockwork orange that's in me i curse the darkness impassioned plea and tear the heart out and watch me bleed i'll sacrifice my blood for free to satisfy the vengence that's in me and bury the mirror that's inside me