I still walk that way, through the courtyard where I spent my 20th birthday You had that poor man’s bottle of champagne Safety in architecture, the street lamps traced a familiar picture We were kids wrapped up in our own world We still feel left for dead in the city where we first met I worked it off Back there you never had a chance Through clenched teeth they’ll say You never should have left that way It’s how you know these now are your days
Dark blurs in hard light As clumsy feet sway off time
It once looked the same, an empty page in shades of grey “It makes it easy,” you used to say, “When you never have to make out shape” We’ll close our eyes, put pen to lines and trace out paths for the rest of our lives And we’ll hope we drew it out right
Because when it’s going black and my eyes burn red from the coughed up smoke of those done-up kids We might start walking home with them We might start sleeping alone again So we’ll show our eyes, hands in plain sight Leaves notes on walls We know they’ll never find To be sure we make it out all right To be sure we’re never
Dark blurs in hard light As clumsy feet sway off time When they asked you if you’d come inside Not sure just what they hoped to find Just look away, hands at your side It makes it easier To pretend we’re all right
Yearn for the sunlight Hope so bad this time You might care to see it light up their eyes To see your dark blur in the hard light