This was the first time This was the first time in a lifetime A whole lifetime That I felt the need to tame Tame the best inside, lurking behind shades Into darkness where it should have remained
This was the first time This was the first time in a lifetime A whole lifetime That I felt such a shame Shame of being this hollow thing I am The selfish piece of flesh, this empty shell
The first time in a lifetime
You weren’t meant to feel this I wasn’t meant to feel this We both met hidden sides of who we seem to be This side we never show to others This side we barely dare to whisper
I feel this inner fire, the same warmth I need The personal fire Catharsis through pain and redemption
Redeem me, Father For I am a foul soul Feel my burns, Mother For this is my deepest essence
This is me Not a lie Another real me The sordid part that sometimes wants to die Me the second Me again The Me you thought you’d never see Narcissus defaced behind the glorious clown How do you do? Enchanté... That’s me
Me is a pathetic soul A lonely bullied Is a damn forced adult when me is still a crying child
A godless, faithless man just searching for salvation Is an importance whore And attention whore
INNER JIGSAW:
Jigsaw Jigsaw pieces inside (Thoughtscan) Witness Witnes vs. spy eyes (Thoughtscan) Love / Hate Love / Hate, Pain / love Jigsaw Jigsaw pieces inside
Consciousness of an inner mental war Morbid visions, figures of the selves, whores Suspicions, fear and hate, around his world A huge desire of feeling it, sore, more
We all are the products of mothers not gifted Bound to reproduce their endless mistakes Monkey see, I say monkey do You do as you’re told then you end in the blue
Jigsaw Jigsaw pieces inside (Thoughtscan) Witness Witnes vs. spy eyes (Thoughtscan) Love / Hate Love / Hate, Pain / love Jigsaw Jigsaw pieces inside
The goal is not always to analyze The goal is to go ahead There is a time to forget all compromise The action is go.
THE ACTION IS GO:
Go Let go, let go, let go, I’ve got to let it go Let go, let go, let go, let yourself go
My mouth is opened, a face remembering the Earth A silence of gold and a motherless birth A selfish destruction, greed of pain A mental distortion, the rites insane
(and I try) To feel the same fire The warmth of my deception And I try to keep my own self up Death, but I refuse its light
I won’t shift, no I won’t deny The mistakes I made, I won’t try to hide My real nature, the essence of I The is me (that) I despise, the being I try To improve Before I’m doomed
LA QUESTION:
“- Alors j'avale, j'avale pas, c'est ça tous vos problèmes? Putain, mais moi je croyais que d'avoir de gros cerveaux comme les vôtres, ça servait à passer le cap digestif! À se poser deux, trois questions! Du genre? Du genre "Qu'est-ce que je ferais si j'étais moins con!?" Si ça se trouve la réponse elle est peut-être pas au dessus de vos forces. Encore faut-il se poser la question!”
Jigsaw Jigsaw pieces inside (Thoughtscan) Witness Witnes vs. spy eyes (Thoughtscan) Love / Hate Love / Hate, Pain / love Jigsaw Jigsaw pieces inside
A WORLD OF CIRCLES:
I’ve been living in a world of circles Down in self-inflicted lies I turn and I turn and I turn around But I’m still looking for what’s to be found
Time helps nothing Time heals nothing (It’s a tale that’s) been only told to cure the naive We’re dying as were born: Naked, blank, meaningless
Neither better nor worse. The warmth of my deception And I try to keep my own self up Death, but I refuse His Light
This is not the way I should be walking the Earth This is the same fire eating me alive A do-it-yourself solution of survival A will to find a way beyond this horizon
This is not the way I should be walking the Earth This is the same fire eating me alive Is your way my way? Do I have to walk your path? If your shoes fit let me walk in mine
Just listen to me for once and shut your mouth You’re living in a world of shit, from north to south (For) fuck’s sake, stop the caugh and laugh with us, smile! Until it hurts much and you’ll cry This is a sign of life, a lie to die for A sight to go blind for
I’m tired of your shit, to be covered of your spit Maybe I will get crazy out if this? I won’t be sorry I calculated your body, I’ll divide it in cubes And while I’m here, open your bitch ears and fuck you
We are all products of mothers not gifted Bound to reproduce their endless mistakes Monkey see, I say monkey do You do as you’re told and you end in the blue
Neither better nor worse The warmth of my deception I try to keep my own self up Death, but I refuse its light
This is the last time
TERMINATION – A LIVING SHELL:
This was the first time This was the first time in a lifetime A whole lifetime (But) I ain’t feeling no more shame Shame of being this hollow thing I am A selfish piece of flesh, this living shell