I've given up at starting over and over. Our vicious cycle repeats as I sink deeper and deeper. Push through the pain and now that six years have passed... I thought I'd forget the past and this pain you've left me.
Became the victim. When my father had his hands around my neck, screaming \"God, take control\". Or was it when you beat me up and threw me across the floor? A whole lifetime with no apology. But imprinted in my mind is the message you beat into me; because of memory I'll never forget.
The one thing you taught me. The one thing you taught me. The one thing you taught me. The one thing you taught me.
You taught me how to hate.
I hear you in my thoughts and see you in my dreams; why won't you leave? They're just sad reminders of growing up a ghost in my own home.
I was just another black sheep; fucked up kid; no skin to live in. A pure waste of your fucking semen. Father yeah! Father, why are your hands so cold? (so cold) Its hard to see you from the floor.
I was just 14. And now these demons you've passed down to me must come out eventually.FUCK!
I hear you in my thoughts and see you in my dreams; why won't you leave? They're just sad reminders of growing up a ghost in my own home. (These thoughts have been hard enough to hold.) Why won't you leave? (These thoughts have been better left untold.) Why won't you leave?
I've been dreaming of a day where I can say this to your face... You are dead to me; erased. (You are dead to me.) And you're the only one to blame.
I guess I'm still that boy my father raised. When someone steps out of line, you smack them back into place. All the fear and torment and deafening screams Are now just echoes in the walls of your dying fucking legacy.
What? What? What will you regret motherfucker? This anger isn't temporary.
I hear you in my thoughts and see you in my dreams; why won't you leave? They're just sad reminders of growing up a ghost in my own home. (These thoughts have been hard enough to hold.) Why won't you leave? (These thoughts have been better left untold.) Why won't you leave?