it happened long ago and I confess that I found faith in liquor bottles and that poison gave me hope that I'd forget the words she'd say to me when I was drunk and half asleep and I admit so shamefully that it still hits me hard but I dont know if I could lie to you I think Id rather tell the truth for once in my life leaning on the wall with my guitar trying to find the right chords but its hard because nothing is beautiful to me I took another bus up to new york gotta get away from all the people I pretend to tolerate and there she is I dont even question at this point that I take things for granted and I find ways to destroy them but she keeps getting close to me I hang her from the balcony she makes marks in me with her teeth to show she's in control and I dont know if I could lie to you I think Id rather tell the truth for once in my life