DOESN'T IT MAKE YOU SOMETIMES THINK AGAIN THAT THERE ARE SOME DESPITE HAVING EVERYTHING JUST FEEL LONELY AND EMPTY AND SEVERELY LACKING I THINK IT'S REALLY A COMMON THING LIKE MANY GO ON LIVING FROM ONE FUCKING DAY TO THE NEXT PITS OF DESPAIR, HELLS OF LONELINESS SQUALID 2 THOUSAND FUCKING MILE STARES FUCKING HEADBANGING SCUM WITH SOME FOUL REMNANT TASTE OF PASSERS-BY WITH FEELING SOME LAME PASSING TASTE OF NON-ACHIEVEMENT YET DEEP DOWN INSIDE THERE'S THIS HOLE INSIDE OF THEM EMPTY, HOLLOW, VACATED IT'S LIKE YOU ASK YOURSELF IS THIS IT? IS THIS WHAT I'VE BEEN FUCKING LIVING FOR? THIS IS IT? ISN'T LIFE DISAPPOINTING? CONSTANTLY MISLED, DECEIVED, AND PERPETUALLY LIED TO THIS LIFE THAT WAS SO NEAR TO NEVER HAPPENING PEOPLE LOOKING FOR THAT ELUSIVE IT TO FILL DEEP VOID AND EMPTINESS INSIDE WHATEVER THIS IS IS THAT ONE THING THAT WILL MAKE YOU FEEL A SENSE OF WHOLENESS, OF COMPLETENESS, OF PEACE? OF HAPPINESS AND WHEN YOU HAVE IT WHEN IT'S RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU ONLY THEN CAN YOU BEGIN TO: FEEL THAT OR PERHAPS THAT FEELING FILLING YOU UP COMPLETELY THAT'S WHEN YOU KNOW THAT YOU'VE FOUND THAT PIECE OF YOU THAT WAS MISSING ALL ALONG THOUGH WHATEVER THAT HAPPINESS TRULY IS IT'S ELUSIVE YOU HAVE TO STRIKE ONCE YOU FIND THE SLIGHTEST CHANCE THE SLIGHTEST WINDOW OF OPPORTUNITY YOU'LL HAVE TO GRAB IT AND YOU MIGHT JUST FIND IT SLIPPED AWAY AND YOU'LL BE LEFT ONLY HOLDING THOUGHTS OF WHAT COULD HAVE MIGHT HAVE SHOULD HAVE BEEN THE CONSTRUCT OF REGRETS SO WHEN YOU DO FIND IT RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU NOW DO FUCKING TAKE IT.
DID YOU EVER WONDER HOW PEOPLE CONTINUALLY SCHEME BEHIND YOUR BACK? YOU CAN NEVER TELL WHAT OTHER PEOPLE THINK OF YOU TO SHIELD YOU FROM A BITTER PAINFUL TRUTH OR MAYBE JUST NOT WANTING TO REVEAL THEIR INTENTIONS WAITING FOR THE RIGHT TIME TO ASSAIL YOU, OBLITERATE YOU BUT MAYBE NOT MAYBE EVERYONE LIKES YOU AND NO-ONE PLANS HURTING YOU MAYBE YOU'RE SAFE THEN AGAIN MAYBE NOT WHILE YOU BREATHE HERE NOW YOU REALISE THE REAL TRUTH YOU CAN RELY ON NO ONE BECAUSE THEY WILL BETRAY YOU IT'S JUST A MATTER OF TIME YOU CAN RELY ON NO ONE LOOKING INTO THE EYES YOU'VE KNOWN FOR A LONG TIME OR HAVE JUST MET WHEN YOU SEE SOME LINE OR SHADOW ON THEIR FACE AND YOU REALISE YOU CANNOT TRUST THEM THEY WILL LET YOU DOWN IT'S A SHEER MATTER OF TIME.
NO IDEA AT ALL I REALLY HAVE NO IDEA WHAT'S BEEN GOING ON INSIDE YOUR FUCKING HEAD DO SOME FUCKING INTROSPECTION LOOK DOWN INSIDE EXPLORE THE VERY ESSENCE OF WHO-THE-FUCK YOU ARE AND I DON'T KNOW IF YOU'LL NOTICE JUST HOW FUCKING KEPT DOWN AND EMPTY YOU ARE SO ALONE SO VOID SO FUCKING LONELY EXPLORE THAT PLACE YOU ONLY FIND CLOUDED MEMORIES OF PATHETIC FAILURES PATHETIC LIMP NEEDY FRUSTRATIONS AND RIDICULOUS MISSED DREAMS ASK YOURSELF SO THIS IS IT? THIS IS WHAT I'VE BEEN GRINDING OUT? WHAT AN EMPTY LIFE YOUR MISERABLE FUCKING LIFE IN GENERAL THAT MISERABLY FAILS TO ADDRESS THAT DEEP LONGINGNESS INSIDE YOU THAT DEEP PAINFUL VOID IT'S WHY YOU NEED TO FIND SOMEONE TO HURT IT'S TIME TO TAKE YOUR OWN LIFE AND EXAMINE IT BECAUSE MIGHT YOU MIGHT FIND YOURSELF SAYING THIS IS IT? THIS IS ALL I HAVE EVER LIVED FOR AS YOU WALK THROUGH LIFE LIGHT BECAUSE YOU'RE WALKING UTTERLY EMPTY JUST HOW EMPTY AND MEANINGLESS YOUR ACTIONS HAVE BEEN GO DEEP INSIDE THAT NOTHINGINESS YOU CALL YOURSELF AND EXAMINE YOUR OWN SHODDY MOTIVES TO REALISE THAT YOU'RE WOUNDING YOURSELF MORE THAN YOU EVER COULD IT'S REALLY FUCKING TRAGIC TO SEE THAT THRILL-HURTING YOURSELF IN SUCH A MANNER SINCE YOU OBVIOUSLY GET THRILLS CHEATING BUT IN TRUTH CHEATING YOURSELF SCAMMED OUT OF A LIFE.