[Hook: Carolyn] (x2) See the flashes your mind plays back, made a choice that you can't take back So when you close your eyes and take your last breath, tell me: is it really better, is it really better?
[Verse 1]
Newborn, left alone by the dumpster 16; now nobody wants her Where's her father, where's her mother? Pissed off again, an orphanage These kids are left to wonder: \"Do you love me? Why'd you leave me? If you couldn't raise a baby, why the fuck did you conceive me?!\"
She lays her head back, daydreaming A couple minutes later, she receives a call from Cece Cece says, \"I got a couple grams. If you got a couple dollars, you should hit the spot and meet me.\" Now she's diggin' in the pocket of her jeans, living like an addict in the mindset of a teen She rushes down the street, hops in a black car Coughing up her money for a bag of black tar It's a shame she never noticed that she stuck it in her arm That the tonic meant to help her was the one doin' the harm And now she's gone, damn
[Hook] (x2)
[Verse 2]
Meet Tammy; she's a rebel, never listened Her father wants her to excel and be a good Christian All she wants is money, always worried about her image in material things, putting feelings at a distance
Another pretty girl caught up in the quicksand, down to sell her body every time she meets a rich man It might be a lack of self-respect, but it's easy to forget when they make out the check It's like, every night she sticks out her neck for a watt gold bracelet and a necklace set Now she's gettin' in her car, drivin' to the hotel, about to make another stack if it all goes well It's a client that she's met up with a lot, but when she arrived everything just went a rye They got into a fight, he whipped out a gun and shot her, when she took her last breath, all she thought of was her father
*Breath*
[Hook] (x2)
[Verse 3]
Seven in the morning, John is out the front door Jacket full of cash, yet he always wants more With a heart full of sorrow and a face full of greed, running from his problems; chasing only green When he's home, it's like he faces his whole life He's never known love; he don't like his own wife That's why he's havin' sex on the side, always searchin' for a purpose in the depths of the night; it ain't right It ain't a way to live; immersed in his work, another business trip So he, packs his bags and he kisses his kids Little do they know he went to meet his trick, it's an addiction But tonight it's different, when the feelings start to surface and ignite the friction He produces a gun and doesn't think of his family, shoots her and himself Her name was Tammy