How much anger have I kept especially for you? You are dear to me How much bitterness have I collected especially for you? You are dearest to me I wanted to know how to concede to you How many thoughts, parting, hate? In the middle of all this grows for us love How many stories over the years? If only I had known how transparent I was to you I wanted to know how to lie to you How many times have you forgiven me? Did I forgive you too? It was the clear words that got away from me, slipping beneath language I wanted to know how to talk with you I wanted to know how to tell you I wanted to know how to be for you I wanted to know how to move you I wanted to know how to love you