koko ni kimi no namae o tsuketa boku no “kimi” o hagukumou itoshisa o koete onore o takami ni… sore ga ima no boku no seiipai
koko wa boku ga boku de irareru daremo hitei wa sasenai kasou no sekai de warai kakete kure sore dake de ii kotoba wa iranai
mamori mamorareru futari datta boku mo tomo ni soko ni itakatta itami o boku ni wakete hoshikatta nante imasara…
saigo no kaiwa no kimi no koe o omoidasenai hodo totsuzen ni kimi wa koko ja nai basho e mukatta saigo kimi wa donna kao o shiteta…?
kimi wa kesshite konna boku o nozomi wa shinai wakatteru
ushinau handou nasakenai demo mada chigirenai na chigirou tomo shinai
heya ni nokoru kimi no koe de itsumo nakitaku narunda nageki ni karada o yudanete kasou no kimi no miyako tojikomotte itai…
nanimo gomakasanai futari datta sasayaka o kiwameru hazu datta omoide o kurikaeshi katarunda akireru hodo ni
saigo no kaiwa no kimi no koe o omoidasenai hodo totsuzen ni kimi wa koko ja nai basho e mukatta saigo kimi wa donna kao o shiteta…? ************************************************ I attached your name to this place, bringing up my own picture of “you”. Outpacing affection and elevating oneself…That is the best I can do right now.
This place allows me to be who I am. I won’t let anyone annihilate it. I would be content by just having you smile at me in my imaginary world. I don’t need any words.
I protected you and you protected me. You and me were both right there. I longed to share your pain and yet…
I can’t remember how you talked during our last conversation, because too suddenly I confronted a place without you. What kind of face have you made in the end…?
I know that you would have never wished for me to be like this.
Losing any backlash is shameful, but yet I’m not torn to pieces, and I’m not going to be.
Your voice lingering in my room always makes me want to cry. Devoting my body to grief, I want to lock myself inside the capital of you in my imagination…
There was no need for us to falsify anything. We were supposed to be choosing modesty. I recite our memories over again until they amaze me.
I can’t remember how you talked during our last conversation, because too suddenly I confronted a place without you. What kind of face have you made in the end…?