Did I ever care enough to stop myself? Did my begging heart get the better of me? My hate can't exist if I'm alone in this body. My hate can't exist alone. Every breath of this plagued air that you're breathing in You're breathing death. As sorry as I already am I can't stop this from happening. Nothing ever lasts in my head full of lies And in my selfish begging heart. The same heart that wants you in my blood. It wants you to feel. It wants to hold you. I'm not lonely for once but I know it won't stay. And I'm sleeping at nights but my love fades away. The days become longer. My hands are so frail. There's a numbness surrounding and I've nothing to say. I felt love for a while But I died in the promises. I felt love for a while but I died. Had I loved you before it ever had a chance just to be love?