I'm not welcome outside in the cold When I wake up and smoke in the morn And all memories make a torturing load Same thoughts again and again The same pain
They once said to me \"you're a liar\" Well I am but that's not what you think
Mellow is my solitude in the evening when I'm home Then I forget what I did to all of my friends Visions disappear and fade so I do a crazy dance But then they creep back up Up into my wounds
And it hurts it burns carves a smile on my face I'll remember and bear my shame
In the streets of harsh winds and dog mugs Someone help me to forgive them all It's so cold you can't even give me a hug Suck back the water that I spilled
Autumn, kill my body Winter, pull out my soul Spring, shake out all the silt Summer, take away my guilt